What I think success looks like?

I’ve seen this on Facebook and my bosses’ office. I definitely agree.

I’ve found myself in really sticky situations especially lately but like all other times, I try to turn it around. Lately these last few situations have been a more serious degree. I really enjoy my new job.

Not too long ago, I got laid off from my job. I’ve been working in the biotech and pharmaceutical industry since I graduated from college. I saw that as an opportunity to re-think my goals and choose another career path. That was when I changed gears towards public health and I am currently working for a non-profit.

Also my most recent one was walking away from a promising (once-so-promising) start-up. I’ve been with this group since February and we got ourselves a grant and an accelerator. When the accelerator started, my partner was fighting over silly things like money even though my partner said we should try to avoid fighting over money. The thing was I never fought back over money but my partner kept starting the fires. The reason why I never fought back is because I had no money to really keep in the first place.  I already knew what was coming. When you’re an entrepreneur — expect to be without a paycheck for a while. I’ve heard various answers — it could be months and it could be years. I didn’t mind behind without a check from the start-up. I guess my partner was stressed for putting her eggs in one basket. Also my partner and I had very different visions for our start-up — one driven by commercialism, the other was driven by passion. I left not just the accelerator and told the program to just give my stipend to my partner, but overall I left the start-up. Like I said, I had no money to even take in the first place. There was no point fighting back.

That is the ugly side of being in a start-up. Make sure your partner is a real partner and shares the same vision with you. My partner and I saw things differently and it simply wasn’t working out.

It was really hard for me to leave because I was the spokesperson for the start-up. I attended networking events and everywhere I went, people told me that I seemed extremely passionate about what I was doing. I wasn’t sure what was going to happen the next time I was going to see these people about what happened. But now since the worst is over, if I were to ever bump into any of them again, I’m all right telling them what happened. I am posting on this blog after all.

I was afraid of leaving because I was afraid people would think I’m no longer interested or was not willing to take on the work. Not true, I felt because of what happened, the relationship was going to be so toxic and not salvageable — the easiest thing for me was to walk away. I knew I had other avenues to pursue.

I know these won’t be the last time I’ll encounter difficult situations. My boyfriend tells me that my stand-out quality would be tenacity. I encountered some pretty unfavorable situations but I try to do the best I can with whatever cards I’m given.

For my third weigh-in, I lost only 1 lb.

Which I guess isn’t bad since I was freaking out for the past two days trying to figure out how to get rid of this PMS water weight gain.

Speaking of which, I learned if you work out during your ladies week, you actually burn more calories. The problem is during my ladies week, I don’t have the motivation to work out. But as of lately with my walks around the business park and training in the park, I think I’ll have a better ladies week.

I think applies to me…

I’m a little behind. As of 7:56 pm, I’m over 6,000 words.

There’s an anti-NaNoWrimo article on Salon. I think Miller is definitely missing the point. It’s like she is saying “Forget about running that marathon, just run a little bit everyday.”

It isn’t to write a best-selling novel. It’s more like a challenge to have the discipline to write everyday and jotting down ideas and reaching hard but yet doable goals. Trying to at least make the storyline coherent. It doesn’t have to be perfect. I’m just to challenge myself if I can create a novel (if not the whole world) in 30 days or less.

I guess I went safe with trying to write a collection of short stories revolving the same character. I decided to make the book take place over a ten year period. I’m just going to keep writing and see how far it’s going to take me.  I mean when I first started–actually on the night of October 31st, I realized I had NOTHING, NOTHING prepared. Some or if not all authors when they write fiction novels don’t come up with ideas and story lines, they come up with a whole world. They think of the characters, they come up with their backgrounds, the house or apartment they grew up in, the place they live now, the city its located and what part of the world is that, their friends and family, their hopes and dreams, and their friend’s and family’s hopes and dreams. You see, there is a lot of thought into writing a novel and on the night of October 31st, I didn’t think of any of it. I started thinking these things as I go even town names, my characters names, minor character names, etc.

Would write a non-fiction but I don’t have a specific thing. My memoir wouldn’t be worth a 50,000 words.

In other news, my boyfriend wrote his first blog post all by himself on Meet Mocha. I guess he’s kind of getting into writing on top of his other hobbies such as video games, computer games, and working on his car.

Moonlighting–err…Dusking…as a tutor

Since last week I’ve been tutoring after work about 2-3 times a week.

A few months ago, I left an ad for tutoring because I had plans to go back to school and take some classes. I thought tutoring would help refresh my memory. I had a few people responding to my ad and I responded back and I never hear from them again.

Then all summer and up til now I forgot I ever did post that ad.

Last week, someone responded to my ad and the following day I started tutoring her daughter in math. The next session after that, the mom asked me “when she’s more confident in math could you possibly tutor in other subjects too?” Nice! I got myself a client!

After work I tutored again and the mom asked me “could you also help my other daughter with school too?” Sure…why not.

After a week of tutoring her first daughter, I noticed she’s gotten a lot more confident in math. Always good to know that I’m helpful :-).

Both her daughters go to private school, looking through both the girls agenda books the pile of homework looked pretty overwhelming for their ages. I don’t remember getting that much homework back then.

Anyways it’s easy supplemental income without committing to having a second job. I get out of work everyday at 3:30 and I tutor around 2 to 3 times week week at 4 and I usually end at 5. So my day ends at 5. It’s the easiest 20 dollars (per session) I’ll ever make.

I thought maybe make it a challenge to only live off my tutoring money. I don’t mean use my tutoring money to pay rent…just gas, groceries and miscellany. It helped me save trips going to the ATM to get cash and less temptation to use my debit card because I now get a 5 dollar monthly fee for every time I swipe my card–even if I swipe once for that month.

Using cash would also help me feed my cow. Bessie is looks really hungry.

In other news…my boyfriend makes his debut post. Check it out!

Would you let your significant other guest-post on your blog?

Cedar creek falls



Went to cedar creek falls on a hike. It really is a tourist trap. Was trying to hide the crowd because in the second picture this is what it really looks like–a big pool party!

Much prefer Three Sisters Falls.

Mango ice cream


My Vietnamese coffee ice cream didn’t turn out so well. I guess a ice cream maker is much needed. So I decided to make mango ice cream in my first run with the ice cream maker. So much better. Best 30 dollars I’ve spent!

Here’s the recipe:

1 ripe mango, medium to large
2 eggs
1 cup sugar
1 tsp. vanilla
2 cups cream
1 to 2 cups milk

The rest of the recipe is here.

I added a hint of lime juice and mango chunks. Also instead of milk, I used coconut milk.

Btw, the ice cream maker I got is a Hamilton Beach and I got it from Walmart.

The Wrestler was on TV today–it was my first time watching. I missed the beginning but this movie was quite a ride!

Pizza with Basil Walnut Pesto Sauce

Hmm…fresh herbs so I decided to use basilfor this recipes superfood and I made basil walnut pesto sauce and put it in a pizza.

Here is the recipe for the sauce:

* 2 cups packed fresh basil leaves, (2-3 bunches)
* 1/4 cup walnut pieces, toasted
* 1/4 cup grated Parmigiano-Reggiano cheese
* 3 tablespoons extra-virgin olive oil
* 3 tablespoons water
* 1 large clove garlic, minced
* 1/2 teaspoon salt and freshly ground pepper

source: Examiner.com

And from there placed it on top of the pizza. We used feta cheese, walnuts, and tomatoes as our toppings :-).

Steamed artichokes

A few days ago, I was reading an article called “Top 10 superfood for spring” and my goal is to try to make a dishes with any of the superftoods to get cooking muscles going (so yeah…trying to span beyond pasta, hot pockets, and quesidillas). For my first try I wanted to do artichokes–I love artichokes on my pizza and sandwiches but tonight I decided to do something simple which is steam artichokes and dip.

So basically I cut the tips of the artichoke and take out the outer leaves. Let it boil in a sauce pan of water. I added freshly lemon juice on top,olive oil,  minced garlic, salt, pepper, and herbs of provence (you can use whatever herbs you want). I really should’ve taken out more outer leaves because some of them were really tough to eat or maybe I should’ve cut more of the tops on the outer leaves.

Here’s well–what it looks like on the plate. So yummy. I made the dip too it’s really simple just put olive oil and add some vinegar, some lemon juice, and whatever herbs you like.

Really easy dinner and so yummy! Would definitely make this again :-). I definitely would like to try to make more things like my favorite dipping sauce chimichurri–easy to make but I’ve been craving this one lately. Haven’t had chimichurri in years! I look forward to dipping hawaiian rolls or pandesal in some chimichurri.